I am these days

 2009.7.29
to Guangzhou for a week, and work is also on the two days. Shallow that the original, society is such, ah, work is so ah. I expected, fantasy, all vanish.
Yesterday, the first day of work, a complete collapse, the collapse of a no. to Guangzhou these days, how its so easy to crash? I do not want to be losing control of their own has collapsed. had collapsed so easily. easy to I knew that I already desperate. escape. a short period of 7 days, struggled to live, a lot of things, many can not, a lot of frustration about Pang hh aunt, the Ministry of Foreign Trade, the now, the brothers and sisters, the hh
can not go home I do not like it, downright do not like. screaming, crying was to leave this place, go away. was like, so long as to allow me to leave, I will step without looking back leave. my willfulness, no doubt mother and Hongli was refused. In the end, I gave in; I lost my mother to prepare for this year, lost Hongli's well-intentioned, but lost to the do not want to be the second sister's determination. But, I do not regret, no regrets with her mother without reservation, Hongli wails; do not regret it in the furniture industry, wants to leave the top six of the company. Now, now The only thing I most regret thing to Guangzhou !!!!< br> Maybe I'm not much of a child for others. even knew my dear mother and the family that will miss me, even if I tell ease I'm doing great they are, they will still be thinking about, let alone find any Quedui now so I tell them without reservation. Sure enough, my mother stayed up all night last night, and this is the mother of a pure heart misses his daughter, Today at noon, just after, her phone to striking the region. with a smile said to his mother, its a good time; since could not walk, and I still want to live, then I would change the attitude to be happy to stay, here, ah hh But deep in my heart I told myself the next start, I would have to face difficulties. Because of this, I thoroughly can not go back.
and miss the blessing of their loved ones in this life as I power it. Before I left Harbin, brother silent on my cell phone left in the Drafts of the to be precious.
ps: There is no network, no bathroom, no desk, no hh like I fell into the abyss of the end of which, I do not know when to leave the boil.
silently waiting it, no distractions to learn it. Perhaps, N for a long time, I will suddenly see the burning sun.
2009.7.31
out of the university campus, should I take off a childish,, but now it has become more childlike . sitting in the office, I'm like a child as aimlessly, both in their eyes about, or in my own eyes, whether it is shorter than I am, or thinner than me, and always feel on them from the inside exudes a mature taste. Instead of me, living longer and young hh so I can play arbitrary willfulness, losing his temper, no need to worry about the eyes of others, no solution. cry cry, to laugh to laugh, think depression to depression to play. always feel these are going to leave me, I desperately want to catch the child is about to become adults from the last trace of this process, the arbitrary.
that we should not blame my recent inexplicable and vexatious, it attributed the last rite of wanton it!! I unleashed wanton, and a perfect display of the hh
Until now, I still can not endorse the work now, like every day I refined than the people, nothing is outside the situation around their busy off their feet, and I am free of the muddle.
This is not my first job out of school do? management should be filled with blood, menacing fishes ah hh disappointed, disillusioned, disappointed and deceived ruthless killers by my passion for this.
I like the cat just got seriously ill hh
wistfully of the Ministry of Foreign Trade between us, right close apart, can do for me, the phase between heaven and hell do not. Here in the day, I have the opportunity to enter the door that the glass door to let me do the mysterious   Ps: signed today the work of contract, three years!!! smile, maybe I do not even three months have to be leaving here on the right?
I believe, which I will not have any attachment!!! no one so that I can stay down, so I can not stay warm, and my walk, and perhaps can not take any clouds hh